trying to come to terms 7/27/2024

TW WARNING: GROOMING, AND OTHER WEIRD SHIT

idk if you caught or bothered reading the last entry but today is day like 2. today i've been trying to grasp the fact that my relationship with my groomer wasn't a good one. i keep thinking about like how he treated me and the name's he'd call me but like ugh it's a lot of emotions :'/ i've also been fighting the whole "this is my fault" thing. idk i never really took serious online grooming victims and like the after effects but this is an actual thing, and i am so sorry that i never took it seriously. i would never wish this on anyone, and any victims out there my heart goes out to you. thankfully i'm doing a little better. i had a little trouble getting up this morning but idk other than that im ok today.

hope you're all well!!